ok

ughhhhh

i didnt really wanna make another news post but

here we are ig

so, bread.

if the age gap stuff made you feel weird, then you couldve just left me. you know that. right?

you didnt have to continue to have erp's with me. or talk abt how much you wanna use your size to "take" me whenever and wherever you wanted when you come to meet me in person.

as well for the erp's when i was in class.

i wasnt even supposed to have my phone out in class, and if people saw what i was doing, i could get expelled.

but i just went on with it.

i went on with dating you, even though i knew you were older.

because im used to it.

and also, i realized recently that i treated you like how i treated all of the other men who used me.

i took time out of my day, to talk to you. didn't do anything with other people, to talk to you. send you photos and videos of myself, because you asked.

and also, you continued with your baby behavior. the mommy stuff, yea. uh.

and as for the forgetting age thing, i did forget.

though you wouldnt understand, would you?

i have so many problems with my head, i cant think straight half of the time.

and ive told other people at school that i was 13 for a year.

and it really doesnt help when your family, your mother mistakes you for being 13 and doesnt correct herself.

she did it recently, you know.

and i dont pay attention to my birthday, because i hate it.

its just another day for me.

and all of the holidays, the days that were supposed to be special.

all kinda ruined.

but thats only when i was dating you.

its actually kind of sad. but oh well.

a special trip, thats a once in a lifetime experience for an isolated kid like me, hah.

ive forgotten almost all of it.

because i was in a bad mood the entire time.

why?

i wonder.

but oh well, nobodys gonna pay attention to me. everybody just loveess you after all. because you didnt do anything wrong!!!

you're just a perfect soul, not guilty of anything!

and im the only one in the wrong.

alright. yep. you're the one who felt like they were in a cage.

of course!

because im the problem

i always am.

but no, every time i say that, i remember when you called me selfish for it.

i remember when you called me childish for how i deal with my anger because i learned it off of my alcoholic father.

i remember when you called me a coward and a pussy if i were to kill myself.

and maybe i am a coward.

but oh well.

alright. im done for now.

bye.