OKAY OKAY OKAY OKAY

SO

(this is a fucked up family I'm not going into detail)

THERE IS MATTIAS (the boy with the mask), TOBIAS (the boy with icy blue eyes in the first couple of panels, it was a flashback to when Tobias and Mattias were kids), AND THEN STANLEY (the other kid)

SO MATTIAS HAD A FLASHBACK OF TOBIAS, AND HES SCARED OF TOBIAS BC HE'S A LITTLE UNHINGED (ME!!) AND HE GOT A FLASHBACK BUT IT WAS JUST A HALLUCINATION, SO MATTIAS THOUGHT THAT TOBIAS WAS ABOUT TO KILL HIM BUT IT WAS ONLY STANLEY TRYING TO SHOW HIM A BUG, BUT HE PUSHED STANLEY

imma start ranting istg bro-

I LOVE THIS COMIC!!

I BUILD MY PERSONALITY AROUND THESE CHARACTERS!!

also here's my smule lmao

https://www.smule.com/sing-recording/3150122037_4850059849

(recent and fav song- I got a lil angy)

https://www.smule.com/demesticpico

(my full acc)

SING WITH ME OR ELSE

YOU DIE!!!!

yall we got the results back from a social and a science test today

science killed me-

29/35

I guess its not that bad, but oh well ^^

AND I FUCKING COOKED ON THE SOCIAL TEST

BRO I KNOW SO FUCKING MUCH ABT HOW MY COUNTRY WAS MADEE

58/61

SIXTY ONE QUESTIONS, AND I GOT FIFTY EIGHT RIGHT

RRAHHH

also I cant stop drawing tiny Gojo's on my sheets-

I drew one on my math sheet today, MANY on my test, and MANY MORE on my desks, and ofc in my journal

speaking of which, this girl keeps on trying to read my journal

honestly I let her

I said today "go ahead. there's nothing in there that would concern you. its.. hm.. lemme see.. its all just hatred writings, suicide, oh we have some- A LOT of anger towards people.. hm, oh, writing about bullies, self hatred, dismantling? okay- uh- more self hatred. repeating words, anddd yea that's the more recent writings"

she gave it back after reading a bit and said it was boring

i went to the pool yesterday, big one in the city (it has a wave pool)

and while i was in the changing rooms, my little sister looked at my arms and legs and said "you have a lot of cuts" (shes 6)

and i said "dont."

teehee!! my mother didnt question the cuts tho soo yayyy

also when i was in the wave pool i almost fuckin drowned, i swallowed so much water and got hit by so many people

not to mention my mom also yelled at me when we were there-

another kid was staring at me while I was in line for smith, and I just smiled and said "hi there!!" in the nicest voice I could muster

then she gave me the stink eye

I got lost in a whole bunch of stairs, and I didn't even get to go on a slide I wanted too

I went to my friends house dressed as a cowboy with another one of my friends did as well

that was fun bc yes I got to scream and put on accents 👍

we had a nirvana cake at her birfday and it was just Kurt Cobain on the cake, so I grabbed my gun and shot myself and said "damn is that a Kurt nobrain on the cake? that's mind blowing"

RAHH

IM A COWBOYYY ON A STEEL HORSE I RIDDEEE IM WANTEDDD DEAD OR ALIVEEE

the amazing cake

me as a cowboy (again but better)

I sang the song you wrote

repeat over and over again

Eventually you will fall in love

joy sadness worried

I sang a song for you

I wanted to know how you feel

Eventually you grew old

Thank you, thank you for everything

(I won't forget you)

You'll die but I won't die

What will we sing in 100 years?

You're going to die but I don't know

that there is an end

i won't die

i won't die

i won't die

i won't die

i won't die

i won't die

i won't die

i won't die

i won't die

i won't die

i won't die

I...

i love this song sm

GUYS THE COWBOY IS MEWING

RAHHH

IM THE SHUCKIEST SHUCK FACED SHUCK THERE EVER WAS IN THE SHUCKIEST SHUCKS SHUCK HISTORY BOOKS

RAHHH I LOVE WESTERN DAYY

IM A COWBOYY

ON A STEEL HORSE I RIDDEE

IM WANTED

(WANTEDDD)

DEAD OR ALIVEEE

we're gonna start off with random photos of me bc idfk

hahahahaaa i love fire <3

bro my school be going crazyy they got a fuckin truck hanging off of that thing man

IT FUCKING SNOWED AGAIN. ITS SPRING. STOP IT WINTER.

anyways yea

idfk

"how many?"

"10"

"jesus, why so many?"

"i dunno"

ask me that again.

you'll get the answer of 102 on my arm alone.

ok

ughhhhh

i didnt really wanna make another news post but

here we are ig

so, bread.

if the age gap stuff made you feel weird, then you couldve just left me. you know that. right?

you didnt have to continue to have erp's with me. or talk abt how much you wanna use your size to "take" me whenever and wherever you wanted when you come to meet me in person.

as well for the erp's when i was in class.

i wasnt even supposed to have my phone out in class, and if people saw what i was doing, i could get expelled.

but i just went on with it.

i went on with dating you, even though i knew you were older.

because im used to it.

and also, i realized recently that i treated you like how i treated all of the other men who used me.

i took time out of my day, to talk to you. didn't do anything with other people, to talk to you. send you photos and videos of myself, because you asked.

and also, you continued with your baby behavior. the mommy stuff, yea. uh.

and as for the forgetting age thing, i did forget.

though you wouldnt understand, would you?

i have so many problems with my head, i cant think straight half of the time.

and ive told other people at school that i was 13 for a year.

and it really doesnt help when your family, your mother mistakes you for being 13 and doesnt correct herself.

she did it recently, you know.

and i dont pay attention to my birthday, because i hate it.

its just another day for me.

and all of the holidays, the days that were supposed to be special.

all kinda ruined.

but thats only when i was dating you.

its actually kind of sad. but oh well.

a special trip, thats a once in a lifetime experience for an isolated kid like me, hah.

ive forgotten almost all of it.

because i was in a bad mood the entire time.

why?

i wonder.

but oh well, nobodys gonna pay attention to me. everybody just loveess you after all. because you didnt do anything wrong!!!

you're just a perfect soul, not guilty of anything!

and im the only one in the wrong.

alright. yep. you're the one who felt like they were in a cage.

of course!

because im the problem

i always am.

but no, every time i say that, i remember when you called me selfish for it.

i remember when you called me childish for how i deal with my anger because i learned it off of my alcoholic father.

i remember when you called me a coward and a pussy if i were to kill myself.

and maybe i am a coward.

but oh well.

alright. im done for now.

bye.

i fucking hate everything.

he made my friend leave me.

TWO OF THEM.

he just lovesss ruining my life huh?

i didnt do anything to them, so why does he have to bring them into this? my life is already shit and im just trying to get better but i cant even do that. ive been writing a lot in a new notebook, about 5 pages or more about everything. i only tried to help him. yet im just getting punished for trying to do something good. i hurt myself. all of my vent art, the things of cutting. its all true. i have too many fucking problems at such a fucking young age.

i tried to forget about him.

by burning his letter and ripping up photos.

i hesitated on one. it hurt so much. it still does. but i still did it.

im so fucking tired of everything.

i shouldve known better.

why. why. i dont even know why im doing this.

i do know one thing.

i feel used. i never tell anyone my emotions.

im scared that they'll just get rid of me. that they'll just toss me aside.

and by what my life has done to me

yeah. thats what'll happen.

and im SO FUCKING TIRED OF IT.

i hate everything.

i hate myself.

i dont blame people for leaving me to be honest.

why should they have amnesty for someone like me?

i'll pick a date.

i'll pick a place.

far enough from here so nobody can find my body when i finally kill myself.

it'll be relieving.

for everyone.

for him.